Wednesday, November 13, 2002

 

got caught in the rain today. actually it first drizzled heavily at the start of the chem paper. felt good. then it died out, possibly because the paper was damn boring. anyhow enough of the paper. it started pouring when i was still on 165. helped me to recall a good deal many things. so i spent some of that time thinking about how i took in my first student, and how it screwed up in the end, possibly because of me. the distubing thing was she wasnt just my student, she was in the least a very close friend, and ultimately i regret not being able to influence her choice of friends. although i do not think friends have such authority, i think it would be for the better. she doesnt seem to think so. so in that way i lost my first official student. i dun have a second one. i had to run from the bus stop i alighted at to the next one to take 82. okay i sort of walked cause my mind was heavy. throughout my life i have made so many friends that i also lost because i decided not to interfere with their decisions. i do regret some of them. i recall having a crush in primary school, and being the clown that waits for her school bus to arrive and then run back to class like some i dunno what. when i alighted the second time it was really pouring. as usual, it felt good. i have a weird desire to bring someone special to the second storey of a super bus at night when it rains. you ought to see the orange street lights bend as the water flows down the wind shield. at present only one person qualifies, happens that he's a guy. i walked home with my umbrella open though, it was a really heavy downpour.

Zhengyu wrote at 10:28 PM.