Saturday, November 09, 2002

 

meet marcus. who's marcus?

well marcus is a friendly little boy i met today. apparently he doesnt live in my area at all, but he and his elder brother, a cool japanese-looking and rather tall person of someone more than my height, goes all over the island to play basketball at various courts. i was sitting by the side of the court in my usual anti-social way (i dun normally play with others), then the elder brother came over (with a rather sweet smile) and asked if there's a washroom nearby. so i told him about the fjsquare food court across the park which probably had one. while he was gone the younger brother came over and introduced himself, also a very sweet fellow. he reached out his left hand for a handshake, and at that moment i was rather startled, because i suddenly find myself rather awkwardly out of touch with being friendly. we had a short chat, and the pauses were generally because of my short responses. after the elder brother returned the two of them went to play, and i continued to sit there for a short while more before finally leaving for home.

to me, marcus represented a sort of angel. i think in him i saw true kindness. he reminded me i've changed from the person that helped people out of pure desire to do so, into one that's so obsessed with ownership of just about everything. i think i should regret this change. in him, i also saw innocence that i've forgotten. i think i've really changed into such a lousy person. anyway, i just thought that perhaps he and his brother are going around in search of a something. i'm rather sorry now that i was of no help. but you've touched my life. thank you. and perhaps i may be inspired by you to search for my something too.

Zhengyu wrote at 8:55 PM.