Monday, April 23, 2007

 

i didnt say it. therefore you were right to assume i didnt know.

so it is not your fault. so i should let go of this built up tension, because you are just affirming what to you was new knowledge. that you have informed the entire comm of what i fail to announce. in that perspective, i should thank you. i should do it in a nice tone since you have just done me a favour. but i already replied in a cold tone. so now i should be sorry that i wasnt encouraging or even thankful when you did something right. so i owe you one. i shall try to be nicer to you the next time i meet you, albeit you probably will not feel like talking to me anymore. so maybe i should trace back earlier and say that i shouldnt have asked you to do this task, and fail to notice that you were hinting or even strongly suggesting to put this matter aside until the exams. i should understand that you need to study for your exams. with a major like yours i should understand that no amount of study can possibly be sufficient. many other friends in your faculty have proved this to be more correct than wrong. i should understand that your priority cannot possibly be this tasking above your own studies. afterall that is what we ultimately take away from our time here and also the most common reason students get booted out of nus, so we really need to take care of ourselves first before we can expand energy on other matters. what good is a leader if he's not even in school anymore? i should not have brought up the list of discussion questions that may have burdened and distracted you in your studies, and led to you being tasked with such a crappy tasking of handling external people with lousy attitudes. so i should be damn freaking sorry for having done all this to you, and i really should not task this type of nonsense to you again for a while at least, and at least share the rest of the shit with the rest of the comm. I should cool down and stop thinking that i should be upset.

thank goodness we have blogger. now to study that softcopy handout.

Zhengyu wrote at 11:44 AM.