Tuesday, April 22, 2008

 

perhaps studying philosophy makes a person think too much. perhaps it doesnt help that by default i already think too much. i have slowly changed in a sense, and then i think of how unnatural some of our actions are. and how much effort we put in to sustain something that is perhaps only a social invention of my own. and then i think, why am i not going with the flow of things? but what really is the flow of things. probably not what it is now, this is a strained situation. maybe 1 year ago would be a good approximation. then they say, listen to your heart. but it has bled dry and it's sort of difficult to listen to something dead and you dunno whether i am pretending to talk like my heart or maybe we're seeing a miracle and it's soul has come to deliver the message. how do you tell? for one i am not in tune with nature enough to understand the fishes.

Zhengyu wrote at 12:49 PM.