Monday, March 31, 2003

 

heys. going to a gym tomorrow... good chance to work on that injury, hope it goes well. and i just found out about an outing tomorrow night. woo, exciting. (with reference to the entry for 070303: there's a saying in the army that saf stands for serve and f*** off.) okay that had nothing to do with anything. just felt like saying it. sure, some ppl do it. i would too, if not for the fact that in order to want to serve-and-f***-off you have to want to look forward to life outside the army. on the contrary i was trying not to remember anything outside of the army. that's why i cannot serve-and-f***-off. it's actually very difficult for me to pull off. that aside. got to get a life man, havent been working out at all.

Zhengyu wrote at 9:55 PM.

 

whoa. back again. pop was over, went thru that with my sprain ankle. luckily it was a recovering one, else i wouldnt have made it. so here i am, wondering what to do next. i have 3 books to read, and i bought a new game to fiddle with. but i realise i'm tired of it all. i just want a simple life, so i shall try to keep my computer simple. no i'm not stressed or anything. but i just think that it'll be good if everything's straightforward. maybe there are things that you might want to tell me. at this present moment in time, let's just put that away so we can keep everything simple. then again that's avoiding problems isnt it. okay heck, tell me. i tell myself alot of things, anyway. none of it simple enough to be done half asleep, unfortunately. but i do know, and have told myself firmly, that i want to go downstairs to play bball. simple, rite?

Zhengyu wrote at 12:39 AM.

Friday, March 07, 2003

 

friday morning. aftermath of the a level results. no i'm not really upset that i had a B. i deserved it. csl pointed out something which i actually was looking for and found quite a while before he mentioned it. not bad. move on, get lost. that's the best for everybody. there's no need for competition here anymore, as much as i'm trying to tell myself, because there is now an imbalance in my head. as of yesterday, many "what if"s run thru my head, thinking back about that 2 tragic years spent in that place. 2 years full of events, some made me happy, some made me sad. those that made me happy was unfortunately sad things except i was too blind to realise. those that made me sad was just plain sad. met the guys yesterday, at the expense of yet another class gathering. i think we all cannot make it liao, either that or it'll be as jc said, rib. i'm sure the feeling is there. hoping to book out early later today, then can come back see the juniors over at bishan, havent seen ms chiang for so long. oh well. for now, preparing for my 16km march. sometimes, as they say, our eyes are wide open but our minds are so blind. i hope i've finally learnt to see what really is going on.

Zhengyu wrote at 7:56 AM.