Thursday, April 17, 2003

 

i have a journal for my military life. no i have yet to write anything in it, but i was told to, anyway. my first book out. i just want to spend money, it's mad, i know. feel like getting all those stuff i have been eyeing before, despite me being only negative one dollar richer after using the washing machine at camp. i do, i'm serious. okay so it's like dumb and dumb but i cant think of what else to do. borrow a book that was recommended at lecture? errr.... okay, might be interesting though the only one that might stand a chance is the chinese book. and i havent touched chinese for so long. my buddy is this really cool guy called andrew. surprisingly he proves me wrong yet again about a certain school but nvm, this guy is simply great. okay if you ignore the laying of clothes all over teh bunk, yah, great. but really, that doesnt disturb me except when i feel like sitting at the table. and i assure you i can almost always prefer the bed, with a clipboard if neccessary. sad to say we may have to part ways after another two weeks. possible. you see, he is trying to get posted as a pilot. cool, eh? and me... i really dunno where i want to go. okay, not that i can choose. ah well.

Zhengyu wrote at 10:48 PM.

Saturday, April 05, 2003

 

went out with my gang of friends today. although it's probably just me, but i felt uncomfortable because i was the only one that got lucky. i still believe that amongst us i am not the most deserving, but this is what happened and i just think it's all screwed up. sigh. dunno lah. if i am to go there i really hope i can take them with me too. damn it. now i dunno what to look forward to.

Zhengyu wrote at 10:56 PM.

Friday, April 04, 2003

 

been reading some books my sis borrowed for me. there's this one that says depression is anger directed at oneself. okay... the book even recommends re-learning how to slam doors, throw chairs, and i'll be a little creative and add bash up ppl. neh. better not listen to this author.

tomorrow is a big day. well at least it has alot of impact on me. it's the day when you see if you have been right about that sispec feeling. to know whether you have to spend the next 5 mths on tekong, again, and vacating your bunks for as long as you are awake. so that's tomorrow. i'm highly not prepared to be sentenced to tekong. heck lah. okay assume i get posted to sispec and slump into depression. does that mean i'm angry? with the saf? dunno. i'm such a pessimist. oh yes, did i ever mentioned that i was feeling mightly triumphant on pop, because half way thru the parade i notice someone i know limping away in the audience? lovely, that feeling. you had to be in my shoes man.

Zhengyu wrote at 11:25 PM.

 

seems like i'm going out everyday. hm. anyway, back from bbq at bx's place, not a bad outing/inning, considering i had a good laugh. lol. and we had a cake for qy and csl's bdays. bx said yesterday that he thought i was grounded. sort of true. but i missed out on alot of stuff that's been going on. oh well. still somewhat surprised matt reads my blog. i think even i wouldnt read it. oh well. just to clarify a bit. i'm not actually depressed. at least i wun consider myself as depressed. but then again considering how i finished my last soc i think my standards are a little screwed up. so dun worry, i'll be able to handle it. besides, if there's anything that i cannot contain without going burst, i'm always very ready to tell someone, although the first person that springs to mind is almost always jc but he's not the only one i share with, and neither is he always suitable (eg if i saw a particular someone with some rugger on orchard road. that one cannot tell jc.) =) i forgot to mention i finished my 1/100 nataku this afternoon. i'm proud to say we finally have one complete and unharmed nataku. just to complete the set =P

Zhengyu wrote at 12:38 AM.

Wednesday, April 02, 2003

 

came back from a class outing plus majong session. i was telling yang as we passed by a couple at a bus stop, i'm destined to stay away from couples. apparently he almost thought i'm in some kind of love triangle thingy. i am not, and never was. though a year ago or so i might be foolish enough to hope it was the case. heck. life very short, enjoy it. at most laugh and shrug at the not so nice parts, then move on. that's all i wanted to say. and i just found out that this friday's budak performance is fully booked. darn it. laugh, shrug, move on. btw i heard that none of the ten ppl in my platoon managed to pass on monday's test. ouch. okay what now.

Zhengyu wrote at 1:07 AM.