Sunday, August 31, 2003

 

ah. re-online. i'm using my sis's computer (win xp... feels... odd.) cos my parents are playing on mine. a few years ago i'd bet all my assets that this will never happen but well er i guess some things do change. took my dinner more or less alone cos my sis was guiding them along how to play spider. i'm stunned. and xp is really different... it makes the icq console look so disorganised. argh. whatever. anyway... i'm back from my trip. had some little incidents here and there but nothing involving injuries or whatever, although i've decided to black mark one of my platoon mates for refusal to believe that his responsibility also includes making sure that the man behind him is following. oh well, it's not that important anyway, probably wun affect anyone else. i think. i hope. at least why should others suffer because of him? okay enough of that. me tired, shutting down up there already. cant really find that drive to do little things like find roms for friends. i was sort of trying to do that then my sis came in and said let him find for himself lah, then i decided okay that's quite a good reason to rest. the laziness will eat me up soon, i'm sure. interestingly i received this mail asking to be a pen pal, quite funny cos the name sounds singaporean but she asked to make international friends. tango csm: "are you from china?" erm no, i mean ppl have called me japanese (some nice taxi fellow), squirrel (some classmate? cant remember), rabbit, mickey mouse (some tango tst cadet), hamster, gep (jc), er i think the list is too long to carry on. but i'd really like to be just me. yah, that would be best. i borrowed this book today, looks relatively interesting, it's called the lost soul companion, lol. but dun worry, it's just inspirational at times, that's why i took it. i'm always in the kind of mood to read this sort of thing, next to jing yong but nvm. and recently decided maybe i should try to read a bit of those stuff for the bachelors. it's probably useful to share with matt, or maybe jc. dunno, the future is still unknown. still looking at the possibilities of settling care for my parents somehow. dun want to sleep... i havent stayed home very long today... didnt even manage to call jc... and many other things i havent done! but really, i have to sleep soon, i havent even packed my stuff properly, not even polish my lesson boots. alamak. relax too much liao. mm still got much to say but well... i dunno. some times it's better to wait.

Zhengyu wrote at 11:25 PM.

Thursday, August 21, 2003

 

i suspect i'll type another entry later tonight. just a feeling. hey, me received another bday card. one of those nostagic thingys. and a gift from the guys, or maybe not all the guys, not really sure who shared the cost but eh the thing aint cheap, i know. i've been eyeing it for a while, how can i not know? all the same, thanks =) me at home, bag more or less packed (only 3kg?? what the...) maybe i'll pack in more stuff later but for now i'll slack. mm first book out from the new camp, abit stunned, dunno what to do, but after me and rong hwa got onto the taxi everything more or less came naturally. well. more or less. made my way home after fixing quite a number of errors in my planning, like "dropping by" compasspoint which i wasnt passing by at all. so yah things are fixed, shu jin is helping me settle the bicycle hooks so i'm quite the happy sitting in front of the computer now. quote kevin chua, happy like bird. thinking of what to do next... eyeing the chocolate chip mint ice cream in the freezer, that's one thing... starcraft maybe, and a bit of ps. and sleep. all that in a short period of er 4 hrs? jokes. oh yah settled the moe form. but not the stuff i owe waiyi oops. aiyah that one i msg her also she never reply liao... maybe angry already. still staring at the handphone. just now i received a icq msg from er 2 days ago... darn. if i had a bayonet i might have done something stupid already. nvm... continue to be a happy clown, helps alot. they came up with something new, i think today. speed through skill, cool under stress, forever signals! okay so it's a bit the long. the other one is quite a scary thought though. no comms no rest, signals! okay lah, i guess it's quite a good attitute to adopt lor. chiong ah~

Zhengyu wrote at 6:30 PM.

Monday, August 18, 2003

 

heys, it's morning. going to go report to camp later, but last night couldnt blog so here to make up for it, before i dun get to blog for 10 days... had a rather long gathering at zher ee's place yesterday, 10am till almost 7, i think bx would have had alot of problem rushing to book in after that. mm me eating my breakfast aka bonjour choc chip loaf, not bad, once ate a loaf as dinner, one of those days when you book in early and there's no food for you. we did some recording yesterday, i'm still downloading the tracks matt put up... we prac for quite long, more or less started after watching the pianist but er our efficiency has not changed so by 5 we were getting a bit anxious. or maybe only bx and me, dunno. anyway we finally got it done, not our best but enough to satisfy for the time being =) mm received two presents too... the last time i received more than one present was i think two years ago... of the two was a handmade one, which to me meant two things, sincerity by the person, and something bad is going to happen. i dunno, it's just that something similar happened before and everything crashed after my bday. well not immediately, but that's the trend anyway. maybe it's just my fate, we'll see. (my gosh we are quite out of tune... maybe we should have revised our parts. but no time... argh) and my dad just came in to complain it's too loud. darn. and i chewed on the bread bag without realising it... bleah. anyhow we'll see how it goes... times like this i wish i have no grounds for superstition. damn.

Zhengyu wrote at 5:53 AM.

Saturday, August 16, 2003

 

back. hmm... looking at this webpage, half for fun, half out of curiosity. we'll see. anyhow i've calmed down quite alot since talking to that friend of mine on the phone (see previous entry) and yup no big deal to get upset over. got my own one now =) mm now both my feet wraped up, sort of reminds me of those chinese women long ago. except mine is not that tight. talked to the sensei... he's very willing, it's just whether i have the time to go down every night. every night... gosh that's quite a commitment. we'll see, not sure if i can ever come up with that kind of time. maybe, maybe. oh and the webpage is quite interesting. erm well i cant say it's anything worth reading at all but nonetheless interesting. possibly randomly generated, next time got time maybe i go try the same set of inputs again see what happens. i must be damn bored. argh i think i closed my emode window. go open again. hm msn messenger seems to have a problem with connecting. wonder why. oh i spent some time talking to jc on the phone just now, quite the same kind, him diaoing me, me screaming once in a while. well, that's us anyway. my sis came back from akido lesson, got time i go learn from her muahahahahaha. always had this thing for martial arts, oh well. mm now just stoning on the net, waiting for emode to er unfreeze, otherwise not really doing anything. feel like chatting but er nvm. juncai has this one word that would be quite useful here. tomorrow got gathering! mm 10 at tanan merah... should be good. why today i got so much to say ah? weird.

Zhengyu wrote at 11:21 PM.

 

trying to control my temper. it's better now already, else i wun really be typing very sensibly at all. quite upset that my friend is presently appearing to be rather bochap about passing me something i am supposed to buy over. not to mention i paid him quite long ago. previously he told me we'll be meeting at bishan and then just now he tells me he'll be staying in suntec till 4. i've already planned to go see this sensei from bishan, dun pull me all around the island to get something you forgot to bring to camp, thank you. as you can see i'm really not very happy about the whole thing. if he's not going to make things easy for me then nevermind thank you keep the money i'll go buy it at the shops for 15 dollars less than what i paid you. okay. done with that. rockapella has this song, quite good to listen to at times, i'll copy down the chorus here. while it's downloading, it's called smilin'. okay i'm wrong, it's keep on smilin'. here goes. "keep smilin' through the rain, laughin' at the pain, just flowin' with the changes, till the sun comes out again" it's good.

anyhow attended rv agm this morning... things look calm so far. good good. unfortunately i wasnt there to see the pre-agm-appointments-leak-and-people-start-talking portion, since i was about half hour late *again*. ah well. anyhow it's also open house, but rv wasnt singing cos they performed for the previous open house (for geps) weird eh... didnt remember having separate open houses. anyhow they're gonna kick away all the gep teachers... so what is it about geps? dun get. by the time i finish my nie studies there'll be no more gep in ri, just the raffles programme, and i'm somewhat disturbed cos honestly i dun think the gep was meant for such a large number of students, to me it calls for lots of attention from the teachers to each student, tending to their individual and unique needs. that's an ideal model, but it's impractical if you have too many students and too much to teach. and that's what you get when you bring it to the masses. some people think gep is about teaching more advanced things in advance. i think it's about getting the students used to learning ahead of themselves, propelled hopefully by interest, will to succeed, whatever. i'm takling too much nonsense liao, later kena hamtam by the guys, so much for being the only gep in our age.

oh yah, went to budak last night, pretty lucky to get in in the first place, and actually i had a table at first, but er it wasnt that fantastic a place so i shifted after a while. anyhow it was a good preformance, they did quite a number of songs, including a handful that i havent heard before, so i had quite a good laugh, really. still going strong, those guys. there was this section by er double j from er power 98 but er i think it's quite off. sorry mans, but those two guys just didnt fit. besides that, i thought i should be expecting ngam but they didnt come, or didnt sing, whatever. and the rest of the night was good, had another cest la vie (this is just to diao jc) mm while i was still at the table i chatted a little with the woman sharing the table (until her husband came that is) the two of them first heard budak at one of those park concerts, then she surfed the web and found out about blue moo. okay... nice to see how big the fan club has grown. they're probably the most successful, and one of the oldest, just hope they dun go that soon. ah well.

Zhengyu wrote at 4:34 PM.

Friday, August 15, 2003

 

today was so dumb. okay i woke up about 20 minutes later than i should have, then sat there (or was it laid there) in my bed, stunned, for about 5 minutes before i noticed i was awake (slow lah) in the end i left home 25 minutes late, reached tiong bahru happily to find out that the sentosa bus service removed liao, so went back to nel line to hit harbourfront, walked over to sentosa (nice stretch to walk, do consider doing it someday too) so i was half hour late. couldnt find anyone. called my buddy up but he didnt pick up there and then, called desmond up, he didnt go. so he offered raymond's contact, but in the end somehow i didnt get it. my buddy called me up after a short while, and told me the contact by mouth. but cos it's by mouth i wasnt certain if i had it correct, in the end i just decided to leave. (part 2: didnt have the arrangements for the night meeting so ended up staying at home all night) okay lah, went back to ri, bought sandals at j8 first though. talked to ms oei and ms chiang and mr ong (!) found out that mr indra siam to some other schools... the gep teachers are all going off to some other place, cos the whole damn place is gonna remove the gep program in favour of the raffles programme... argh. what the hell. i sincerely think it's not something practical at this kind of scale... and my blog last night didnt register... =( aiyah dunno lah, now only got so few teachers that i know liao... teaching suddenly looks very bleak...

Zhengyu wrote at 12:04 AM.

Sunday, August 10, 2003

 

argh. giddy like nuts. think i'm sick or something, maybe overexertion. typing this only because outlook refuse to load fast enough so while waiting i'll type a bit here and there. changed my plans for today, so going back to camp just in time for book in only. alot of confusions about plannings for this week. firstly i just found out it's going to be really tough to get reservations on 15th. secondly i remembered that there was a reason for me not to go, which i conveniently forgot about. thirdly there's platoon outing on thursday or friday, and i cant remember which day it's supposed to be. fourthly i've asked 3 ppl so far to go and now i probably have to tell them hey look we'll have to crash. still interested? then there's 16/17, still trying quite hard to remember why bx wanted it on 17th instead. cant remember. zher ee offered to use his hosue for 16, i think i've forgotten to tell the rest about it. quite possible. not sure if he's okay with 17, last nite i checked with csl found out bx didnt contact him, which makes me suspect zher ee doesnt know either. and for personal reasons dun really want it on the 17th, but that's personal. never let your own interests get in the way of everyone else, i try to remember, though sometimes i'm quite tempted to, other times my sacrifices let other people get their own ways for no better reason. wonder. okay shouldnt say that, the majority is more impt than the minority. this is a democratic society. a bit worried about the head, spinned quite badly each time i get up from bed. nvm. forgot to pass vincent my email add for the photo. nvm, try to get the whole platoon email this week. then there's platoon and wing photos coming in soon, more money. better bring enough. ai... think too much until headache liao. wanted to do all that shopping this morning, then kena cancelled cos of this. basket. okay lah going off liao, outlook still not exactly done but shouldnt be long. see you people wednesday/thursday (not really sure when exactly lah)

Zhengyu wrote at 3:00 PM.

Saturday, August 09, 2003

 

spent a relaxing morning/afternoon with matt bx and jc. btw i'm somewhat frustrated plus i have bad news for jc. tekken 4 isnt doing so well... probably something went wrong with the cd. i think. sigh, too bad for jc. erm my sis just proven that it works normally in the living room. okay so i'm wrong about the technical stuff. dun understand why though. the guys are thinking of pushing the gathering to 17th. i dunno. erm. i think i shouldnt coordinate this one... went to celebrate yi ma's bday just now. she's 62? gosh... all my relatives on that side are like married with children except one. had like 4 nephews to look after in the attic just now, lucky the eldest nephew and the only niece are somewhere else, otherwise i would have been over run by 6 kids. imagine. and nobody would have noticed the poor guy upstairs. oh yah the attic is actually quite a nice idea... cos it's like you go to the master bedroom, and the left most cupboard door opens to reveal a fleet of stairs! stunning. like a dream world. okay it was rather chaotic in the attic itself cos of the kids, but it's still a great idea =) tomorrow's plan: otot morning, then lunch, then maybe my father can fetch me to school... for the last time for a long time, in jurong. ah well. change. some principle once said we should embrace change. okay lah i guess it's inevitable so we better learn to live with it haha. btw i borrowed two cds from bx... enjoying myself very much with the music. but still looking for that budak cd... it's just different. looking at budak's other launch, dunno how many to reserve for. ah well.

Zhengyu wrote at 11:48 PM.

 

no choir tomorrow. darn it. no practice tomorrow? argh. i'm sitting here in icq silence cos er didnt know what to say and ended up saying nothing. i noticed i'm quite good at that, happened quite a few times before. anyhow i just got my posting yesterday, okay like yay but now what... if i can push forward the gathering then i'm happy, really. i mean 2 weeks at sp and 21 at stagmont... what more can i ask for. not pepsi. ah well. got 10 days to overcome first. in some jungle far away... biang. let's see what else... okay cant check out how rv's doing cos they aint doing anything at all. but maybe can meet up with jc pass him his cd (without your love~) just received a msg from bx... it's on! muahahaha. yah that's more like it. well i had this reflective/soul-searching/what-do-you-call-it session on the nel mrt line today... thought i'm rushing into things again, thinking too much again, assuming and suspecting every little thing (there's a group by this name isnt it) so i should just let things flow. really. learn to sit back a bit and not force the water to flow out from the river when it's not meant to. ARGH. okay let's get off this subject before i go nuts. tomorrow's national day. happy bday singapore. and sorry i sort of forgot just now, it just didnt connect to the long weekend somehow. so there, qiying's hard work finally going to bear fruit. congratulations =) still amused by johan's more or less famous quote "roger roger out to you" he's posted to ai, so i guess it might be for the better. 12 ppl in our wing set to be prontos. 6 from my platoon. it's rare but not as rare as ato. ah well, i really dunno what it means. i think i should end off soon, got work to do tomorrow. plus, there's platoon live firing (no i dun think i'm in a risky position) and 23km march. supposed to be easy for me since i like route marches, but i'm a little worried about the new load. jeremy went ooc for a ligament thing. damn it. sigh. tango 51/03. 3 more days left... she bu de zou... =(

Zhengyu wrote at 12:38 AM.

Sunday, August 03, 2003

 

"wise man say..." heard about 10 seconds of the new budak cd. sigh. no that song is probably not inside the cd but for now it's in my head. it's a little wacko to be out till past 12 for two nights in a row, come home and cook noodles (somehow no appetite outside) then surf net and sleep. i know very clearly i once said i wun do something, but it's tempting haha. maybe that's how it goes, always tempted to do what you have promise yourself not to. nvm. today was another long day, heard some stuff about rv from shen ting. i'm basically worried. okay nvm then, our final conclusion was to wait and see, come in only when it becomes called for. the best is no need lah, cos we cant always be here anyway, they've gotta learn to stand on their own two feet. talked with matt jc and bx for a while and went thru auspicium and change. we need some work, but i dunno when can we dedicate this time to practice, yet at the same time i'm not worried because i believe we can pick up the piece again quite fast. that's rit. radio interference terminal. haha, something i took from bx. planning a mission tomorrow, buy a duffle bag plus something else. we'll see how it goes. the bag at jurong pt not bad, probably will pick it up tomorrow. birthday coming... i think i already have many presents so it's more than enough for me, i'll be overjoyed for quite a while. then again the guys dun seem to buy this sort of statement so ah well. i'm too overflowing with emotions to sleep. damn it, better force myself to sleep before i die during the weekdays. charlie mike 030803, good night, out.

Zhengyu wrote at 1:07 AM.

Saturday, August 02, 2003

 

whoa. it's late. anyway came back home quite late from social nite, had a good time heehee. better not write down the details, later kena complain muahaha. anyway this also marks a long weekend (rv!) and 12 more days to end of term... 12. whoa, reminds me of that song, we pulled it off in bmt but i think better not try again, no more originality and spirit. long day ahead tomorrow, plan to stay out from after breakfast until nite, but probably not so late this time =P sunday... may be going jogging with my family but dunno for sure yet, want to book in early to settle some stuff one... oh yeah. forgot about the present. tomolo got a bit of time. and defaulters too... finally kena liao but lucky to postpone it today heehee, else my parade 4 gone case liao. mm... prep for 230803 so far so good, not so certain about 090803 dinner, probably the 4p one still going on? must check. just saw kezheng i think yesterday, and louis woo at hq. or is that lewis woo. erm. oops. oh yeah, booked out on time today. rare one there. =)

Zhengyu wrote at 1:31 AM.