Saturday, October 11, 2003

 

i like talking to people, i realise. imagine a nice cool afternoon with a friend under a tree, just talking about life and stuff. with a nice drink. non-alcoholic please. and that's always been one of those things i treasure very much, i can still remember one night, that night we spent on the podium, that was j1. i cant remember how many of us there was, we simply brought out all our sleeping bags/mats, pringles, someone brought some wine i think (at that time i havent decided to keep away from that thing) and i remember we had a marker or something like that, it was our tool to keeping score to our card games later on. that was a beautiful night, we sang, played, chatted about everything under the moon, and eventually we knocked out. it was quite a joke actually, someone suggested we take a break to go get some water i think, and that was the end of our party.

anyway, as much as i'd love to talk to my friend(s) again, i find it difficult to ever have such a chance again. i wouldnt ask some ppl simply cos they er have someone else to stay with. i wouldnt ask some because they've worked so hard over the weeks and i think they ought to have some proper rest. some are not even in singapore anymore so that's out of the question (icq is the way to go now) and then that's about everybody liao. sad right.

but that's also good, cos i normally bore the hell out of the other fellow, so unless there's at least 3 ppl altogether it usually ends up quite silent. or maybe i should say i like to listen to them. so far what i had to say had been a whole lot of nonsense, things that didnt add very much to the conversation, and i feel stupid trying to find things to say sometimes, esp when in the end i can only think of some useless thing to say. well, i dunno, i just think some day i should reflect properly on my communication skills, before i lose my bunch of friends.

Zhengyu wrote at 5:32 PM.