Wednesday, December 31, 2003

 

last day of the year! hai, went to houston's lunch after all, quite interesting to see 20+ cadets blocking up the whole marche. houston seems quite well, though the scars will probably haunt him for a while. i had that kind of sensation even without a scar... anyhow it was fun but i was really tired after the diablo run last night.

the rit gathering was pushed back to friday... i hope it'll work out, i have quite a short bookout on friday, i think i'm booking right back in on the same day. madness. well but at least we'll get to meet.

here's the very best part of closing the year: new year resolutions! time to feel bad about what you planned one year ago and didnt do, and then heck it and make new big plans for this next year! =P

Zhengyu wrote at 11:01 PM.

Tuesday, December 30, 2003

 

funny i havent heard from anyone... there's going to be a lunch with houston tomorrow... still dunno if i'll be free to go for that. hai.

had a bad experience booking out just now... everyone was so focused on going home, and i just felt so turned off. is going home everything? havent we been like booking out ever so often for the past week? i couldnt find my phone in my pocket so i assumed i left it in the cupboard. it was actually found in my bag later on, but that was a good excuse to get away from it all. hais.

still thinking of inviting ppl down... there's an amazing 4 functions lined up in the next month or so, it's crazy. i think my parents will get sick of going down for the functions. lucky it's like once to stagmont and once to safti, for them at least. parents cant make it for the stagmont one though, father having operation on that day. so out of 3 ppl that i can invite so far i only have my sis. it's on a thursday, damn weird.

talk about weird. comms parade is going to be on a wed. headache. at this rate i really wonder who can i possibly inivite.

Zhengyu wrote at 11:12 PM.

Sunday, December 28, 2003

 

ladida... going back to camp soon. still havent settled the prez... hai. how about tickets to movie marathon? =P (hey that's not too bad an idea what...)

Zhengyu wrote at 7:02 PM.

Saturday, December 27, 2003

 

boing. came back from ps with sis. she tried to show me orchard's deco from there... not a very good view as you can probably imagine. i met randolph at ps though, although it's more like i spotted him from behind a pillar but he's with this entire gang so i thought better leave him alone.

been reading some of that book i bought from san min bookshop... some food for thought, a handful of things i need to seriously consider. hm... i guess i do like to read this sort of books once in a while, helps to think through what kind of life i've been leading, whether there's some other way of doing things kinda stuff. i guess that's just me.

Zhengyu wrote at 11:33 PM.

 

one of those afternoons that i dunno what to do. just finished the graphs for loy, ask him for email addy to send to also no reply, sheesh.

jc's on guard duty, supposed to find him a present but havent got down to it... i thought i might as well use the chance to go orchard and see the deco as well, but then i realised i dun feel like going there alone. and then cannot think of who to ask (jc still in camp) so there you have it. *bish*

Zhengyu wrote at 2:26 PM.

Friday, December 26, 2003

 

i'm back home again... sheesh. apparently it's a long weekend, supposed to be until monday night but they swapped around so now it's till sunday night. CPC was supposed to be on the 9th but apparently cso cant make it on that day so it's pushed forward by x days, where x is some weird integer not made known to the entire socc, course commanders included. now i cant confirm with my fam, dunno whether to put their name down or what... sheesh. oh yah, found moulds growing on my pillow case and beret... damn scary... so i brought the stuff home to wash, not the beret though, that one need dry washing one...

cedric was complaining that he couldnt sleep last night because i kept disturbing him lol, kenneth seems to support him in his cause sheesh. but last night ced slept damn early lor, and everyone was still streaming in, unpacking their duffel bags, so not my fault what =P well at least i didnt try to poke him or anything rite...

have to start shopping for presents soon... although off hand i do have this rather nice one heh heh, thanks to time mag =P maybe i can try going around tomorrow, then can catch up with the deco over at orchard and whatnots, heard jc say they're quite nice this year =)

Zhengyu wrote at 11:03 PM.

Thursday, December 25, 2003

 

hm... a little while more to booking in. sigh. on the way back from the gathering, ie me bx matt jc csl haoxiang and dill, kept taking the wrong buses and getting off at the wrong stops... very interesting. but only because of that that i chanced upon a rather sweet scene under my block heh. jc would probably puke blood if he saw it. ah well. just an interesting encounter that's all. =)

still trying to fit into routine... all this is quite disruptive considering i'm booking in on a thursday night, then not sure if i can book out on saturday or what nots... everything still feels remotely out of reach. guess i have to give myself a little more time... there's this book i really want to read, about being 20 and all. although that's one more year away lah, but that's besides the point. incidentally the moment jc flips open the book he comes to this page with some er weird connotations... very interesting how he always kena this sort of thing.

got this very nice animation (flash i think. i'm illiterate.) check out the song too, like it quite a bit but just found out it was by the beatles. sigh. got this thing with christmas songs.

Zhengyu wrote at 9:34 PM.

 

damn sad. heh, just finished watching waterboys, and then mass sms-ed all the peeps... sigh looks like all the stories about christmas dun always work, huh. jc went to sleep early, said he wanted to make sure he wakes up in time for his 10 oclock show lol, oh well... at least it's something easier to do, than sitting around like a clown, like me... ai, forgot to thank gerri for her card. i dunno, i think i cannot make it when it comes to expressing myself, as far as i can observe. it goes thru better with ppl like jc, but for the majority of my contacts there isnt such familiarity, and alot of the things that i do implies things that i really mean. what a problem... when no one really knows what i want to say, and i'm not helping when i decide it's too awkward to say and end up implying it again. what a headache.

there's work to be done tomorrow.

Zhengyu wrote at 1:03 AM.

Tuesday, December 23, 2003

 

funny, went to compasspoint to do some shopping, in the end after i finished my errands i realised i dun feel like shopping at all. havent had that kind of problem before i think... tried calling jc but his phone was off, maybe he's in camp or something, i dun know... i was asking myself questions that i realise i couldnt answer. i cant explain whatever it was that i did, and i cant explain what i feel either, basically that makes me a runaway nutcase. what am i really looking for? seems like i'm too scared to step out of my comfort zone, afraid that i might not just fail, but to lose whatever i already have to start with as well...

it's also quite interesting that lately have a handful of invitations to go out, usually i only get one from the guys. missed 2 outings from my class and bmt platoon, both happened 3 days before i came back, too bad. wen and jolin suggested to go out too, but honestly i dunno when i can find time for them, and plus i figured that i'm really uncomfortable going out with some people, i'm okay with wen though heh. oh yah and rv chalet is happening like now, but er i really dun want to go there and find myself all alone in a corner. havent heard anything from the other guys, maybe they're all at the chalet already lol.

Zhengyu wrote at 9:09 PM.

 

mm... a bit stunned still.

finally back from taiwan... there's too many things to say, too many things happening in that jam packed 16 days alone, not to mention the 3 days of frantic running around taipei to enjoy life lol. cedric became my official theme park buddy, so we took like everything that look interesting minus the free fall drop one which he didnt want to take. no objections from my side, i've feared heights for as long as i can remember. went to the san min bookshop... it's huge man, or at least it's much bigger than all the others. bought a book to share with the guys heh, see how it goes.

i think life has been good generally, other than my aching back and the mysteriously difficult to lift toe, it was almost like a holiday camp. we practised what we are to profess in, and overall it was good usage of time (esp some exercises damn welfare some more lol) just imagine having safari beds, compulsory sleep, instructors cooking noodles for you... whoa. hee hee. and so it's almost all over now, with one major test and atp left...

and 01 x big headache... still cant get down to it... argh.

Zhengyu wrote at 4:01 AM.

Tuesday, December 02, 2003

 

my last entry before leaving for 3 weeks... argh. leaving early to pack in things like shoes and slippers which are on in camp, then not bringing handphone along...

talked to xl on icq yesterday, she commented that everyone is all over the place, which is quite true... ppl studying in many different unis, and then now is like hols so many local ppl are flying out for vacation, but so far dun see many ppl coming back. haoxiang is supposedly coming back, what, feburary? then i myself going off too. how many ppl in 3k are actually in singapore now? maybe a good two thirds or something, i really lost count liao.

when i actually come back, there will definitely be a problem, either a good one or a bad one, depending on whether i make it in this 16 days of exercise. heard that i might be getting an appointment, must wait and see lor... hai, really want to concentrate on the course, but getting harder liaos... better be going now. hais.

Zhengyu wrote at 7:30 AM.

Monday, December 01, 2003

 

spent last night talking to a friend over icq... she's going overseas for vacation. somehow that makes two friends overseas on vacation, although lessons end this wednesday. ponder. something wrong with the system? wen's going for hols also but i dun think he has left yet, or at least i dun think he's the kind to miss lessons for anything less than critical matters. ponder ponder.

going tomorrow liao... going to miss alot of things, esp after a long weekend. sigh, my little problem still not solved although jc still think the solution is clear and simple. bish. oh and i went thru qy's page yesterday... something new to find out. last met him in september he still had that kind of aura, so i wonder if it was a new one or what... whichever, we'll find out sooner or later.

argh. dun want to sleep. somemore havent read the ex files... i'm so messed up...

Zhengyu wrote at 10:15 PM.