Sunday, March 28, 2004

 

oh yah. went to visit my grandparents today. it's been a long time since i last did. had some things running along in my mind but i cant really say what it was exactly. one of those things.

Zhengyu wrote at 8:15 PM.

 

weeeee. bringing puzzle into camp later. half mad. had a long debate with jc about erm. he still refuses to yield. i dun really have a reason for him to yield. what am i doing. tomorrow. 16th. sundays. saturday classes. csl's bday. late nights talking with ppl about life. thinking really hard about what to do and forgetting what i am already doing. start of financial year 04/05. i feel really messed up. i am forgetting what was it i wanted. and i keep changing my mind about what i think it is. this isnt right.

didnt i said before, i dont want any regrets?

Zhengyu wrote at 8:08 PM.

 

"whose will is this... which poet's lines..." my mind is presently flooded with "gone" by housejacks, thanks to trying to correct ljc's midi. it's almost there but i just cant help but think it's not exactly there either. had a long day today, worked ot after handing over do duty =( then some more went out to recce again, without success (met alot of ppl though. many many ppl.) then finally spent some time with jc to come to an agreement that we cant find anything. ah well. tomorrow we see. then morning have to go with fam for erm family thing. better learn so i can take over. lunch onwards should be meeting the gang. then night come home pack and rush off again.

life has slowed down since commission. and i really dunno what to attribute it to. ask my buddy. he will know i've been going insane but have no idea why or when it really started (he too is turning mad) might have something to do with the work culture here. fancy overtime on a long weekend saturday. we are all mad. the ps think we are mad. and i'm so going to prove that yes, we are insane and perverse, out to tekan them come wednesday evening soc training and heh my trump card next monday evening, the exercise that no one else knows about. they shall not sleep. they shall be in such fear that they dare not even eat. they shall learn what real survival is going to be like. it's just that i havent thought of a punishment for them yet. maybe make them exercise a bit. tiring them out. make them hate the punishment. install fear (tm) ver 1.0 into their little minds.

I think i may need some psychological help.

oh yah saw many sajc ppl today in their "once a saint always a saint" t-shirt. was wondering what would those armour + arty + sajc ppl wear then? "once armoured arty saint, always armoured arty saint" lol. help.

Zhengyu wrote at 12:35 AM.

Sunday, March 21, 2004

 

mocha almond ice cream. mm. very nice. long time never sit down and have a good talk over ice cream liaos, unlike the days when csl was around. that clown can finish like two tubs of haagen daz in one day. stunning.

gtg rivervale mall shop for all the miscellaneous stuff, else i cant pay my sister back for helping to develop my photos (looks like i just woke up in my no. 2) running out of washing powder too... better look into that. mm. and i want something for the office. a hang on the door knob thingy, or something for the desk. very interesting.

havent settled the prez. wanted to go borders but too lazy. someone shoot me. heh, lucky he doesnt mind. or i hope he doesnt. the truth is we're running (or maybe sprinting) out of ideas.

gtg.

Zhengyu wrote at 5:56 PM.

Sunday, March 14, 2004

 

i dunno where i'm going. me in charge of the prez. me have no time to get that prez. me not getting alot of help in getting prez. sigh.

Zhengyu wrote at 10:46 AM.

Sunday, March 07, 2004

 

yay! although i should be preparing to head back to camp, but what the heck. hope you like the music. means alot of things to me. ie ranging from how i felt towards some people to using it as a vocal/harmony warm up. i like to use songs to express myself, though sometimes i end up being determined by the song i listen to. one of these days you have to hear gone by the house jacks. good music to listen to from within the chorale library. and sob. since it's so small you'd probably the only one inside. (anyway we figured out ways to manually lock the door. almost 100% secure)

i didnt go to suntec in the end, cos i called them and no one picked up. ah. so i went to rivervale mall with my sis for lunch and mm signed on for lessons. i think i've been asking around for advice but i guess if i dun make a move and commit i'll never get started on these. so there you have it. starting 4 april.

exercise! plan plan plan! die liao spent the whole afternoon playing =P

Zhengyu wrote at 6:53 PM.

 

argh. cant stand it. going out to suntec later, collect dinner photos. argh. argh. i think i'm going crazy, maybe i should have seen it coming but i'm definitely not taking it in very well. j2 moods. or was it j1? i dunno which was worse. one year in the army and i have not matured one bit. whatever happened to the simple things?

Zhengyu wrote at 9:50 AM.

Saturday, March 06, 2004

 

busy busy. just realised i missed mingze's bday which was wednesday. hm 030386. anyway i'm just here to grumble cos everyone seem too busy for the things we used to share. i havent heard from bx for quite a while, excluding that mail initiated by matt over the oa system. otherwise... i dunno. the last time we had a gathering at his place, i think i mentioned before, we found a ring on his hand which he couldnt account for. or anyways he changed the topic and we being merry (and drunk) fellas just let him drop it. argh. where have you been? how have you been doing? i only met you twice since, both in army uniform and only because our units are having some activity together. what ever happened to good old time stone-in-his-house-till-we-turned-to-stone? and he's not the only one. well i'm just here to complain. argh, whatever. everyone needs personal space. let them be.

Zhengyu wrote at 10:05 PM.

 

hm. some pretty big things happened out there while i was happily spending my time in a small corner in kranji. so now i'm back (rv has small groups of size 16. wow. now that's small.) let's see... caught up with two more friends, same camp but not exactly related. looking ahead, friend's bday coming soon. maybe we should do something about it. a little worried cos end of the month got chalet. you know how these things go, they're not quite as volunteery as a civilian would understand. so i may not turn up on the day itself at all. for that matter i'm already missing out on a budak concert this month thanks to having dinner with a formation that i do not exactly belong to. the wonders of combined arms. life is stunning. so now some chorale mates are going in my place. wonder what matt thinks of that. i hope he knows. i hope jc told him, anyway.

when everything is just flying by, hopefully i'll still be here. i'm trying.

Zhengyu wrote at 1:40 PM.