Sunday, August 29, 2004

 

sunday. nothing much is happening, really. while doing my homework and playing some game (so much for doing my homework huh) i cant help but to recall talking to edwin. talking to edwin was not easy. i had to think about it for a few days and i kept putting it back. how do you tell a person that he really needs to realise that he's not as good as he thinks and he's really just screwing up alot of things? and that's considered easy. there's one more tougher one, because he is already a senior commander. will he listen? but if i never try, i will only forever regret not testing my luck.

i guess that's not the only kind of time that i need to ponder for a long time. previously i had to ponder rather long over other small issues. maybe i am the kind that needs to work on cutting down my pondering and get to work instead. how would you choose a present for someone you've known for a long time, to the extent that you've more or less exhausted the option of buying something that he or her would actually find useful? how would you talk to a friend that just suddenly goes quiet (and you're quite sure something is wrong)? maybe it's true, i think too much. rather than just wondering what could the outcome be, we need real action. or nothing will be changed. it's this bit of courage that i am still getting acquited with. so, how are you today?

Zhengyu wrote at 1:38 PM.

Saturday, August 28, 2004

 

whoa. something is wrong with my explorer. or maybe something is wrong with me. i cant decide which one.

spent a good long time talking to jc last night about... well about the usual things. both of us were pretty much left in a bad state after the chat, and my buddy too (for reading harry potter until 12am, as well as listening to a one-hour plus telephone chat in *gasp* mandarin, mixed with dialect and english of course) oc commented that i looked sad. he sat me down and asked me if i have any personal problems. whoa. no i dun. well not that i can do anything about it so i guess it's not much of a problem but more of a fact which is actually taking place. anyway i am not sad. it's just that it would be nice if things turned out my way once in a while. then again this is probably too much to ask for.

came home early, then i heard my sis and mum talk about some stuff. very disturbing. i would say it's rampent. it's happening to kenneth's ex-ps (right there in his ntu bunk. gosh.) it happened to my spec (and of course everyone regretted it thereafter) it happened to those two clowns from my company (well one got caught and the other is still pretty much running loose) it's everywhere. and now it's happened to my sis's friend. -scream- i think i need a break. before you know it, it'll happen to someone you know, someone very close (hopefully not though) this has become part of reality, and very much the accepted way of life (huh?)

oh yes i was suggesting to ken about putting up a new slogan in the office. a really disturbing one. so far the draft is directly taken and manipulated from the signal cadet slogan "no comms, no rest". we're thinking of "no life, no problem"

if life was all about poking each other then there probably wun be so many problems. how's things? sounds quite crappy. all the unhappiness and all. maybe things will change. maybe you will change. maybe i have changed. no one really knows anymore.

Zhengyu wrote at 3:18 PM.

Saturday, August 21, 2004

 

lol i'm home again. kinda didnt get to claim my off on friday so I declared that i took my off this morning (from my office seat though) the cos was quite stunned when i walked into the office in cv at 3.30pm. well, so was kenneth when he walked into bunk and i started screaming at him from my lying-in-bed position. anyhow i screwed up the first song at my lesson today, fancy putting in the most effort cos it's like 3 times as hard as the other songs. (for some very strange and unexplained reason) in the end i totally flopped. guess it's a performing thing.

sort of screamed at my men yesterday cos they refused to go to bed. so i started kicking at their door. after about the fourth kick they realised that it was me and started to panic. so i stopped when the light went out. what really got me pissed was yeung kai kwok coming out of the bunk in towel and holding his toiletries. "sir, relax lah" you happen to be one of the most slack person in the company derserving to get the first ever extra issued by me. so much for relax lah. what happened when you were tasked to do something? you bitch about it for half a day. what happened when you were supposed to be recalled to cover guard duty? you happily refused to pick up your phone after you book out. if you want me to go easy on you you better show me some standards.

in case i sound like i'm really quite pissed, i'm alright. i get flared up once in a while but if kenneth is around he can calm me down again (mostly)

aoh has been a real devil. on every other day i see my kids coming home really late and i am talking about reaching camp at 1030, when you are all sick of aoh (but not exactly tired), still wearing your no.4 which you spent your afternoon in the sun with. it's horrible. and commander happily called for a saturday morning vetting so that he could awol and, i quote, "the whole brigade is officially annoyed with him now" poor s3 had to be so apologetic to everyone who came down to attend vetting by commander in invisible mode. then again not many ppl came down. oh oh this one must say. I must slam hq armour since they slammed our hq for no reason. you *******s simply do not care about your own work, why do you even bother going around to slam other ppl for nothing? did we do anything wrong to you? more like we have been doing all your work while you laid there and just scolded us and demanded things that you didnt like. who's the one who cannot be trusted? *********^*$%^&&@#(%&% hm i have no idea how that became a html shortcut. it doesnt work. trust me. okay now i feel better. and more ready to scream at our counterparts in hhq. (yah kenneth let's go kick them butts!)

ahh. much better. oh, happy birthday to me =)

Zhengyu wrote at 7:16 PM.

Saturday, August 14, 2004

 

i cant believe they broke up. maybe it's just me but i didnt imagine it would happen. jc seems to think it was normal. hai. just came back from a long saturday. yah, in camp run, then the specs got held back to do aoh until 3 odd, after that i cleared some stuff and then left around 4 odd. i still havent cleared all my work. i went over to china town, got lost, then finally stayed still and got picked up by matthew, binx, jc, zher ee, csl and haoxiang. pity i totally missed qiying in the end. then we went for dinner, supper, walked around far east square. it was very funny and comforting to be able to chat with the gang again after so long (despite having met only very recently) we had a good laugh at lau pa sat and in front of this japanese dessert shop (it sells thai food too for some unknown reason) i guess we're all still young and pretty much senseless. let's enjoy this while we still can =P

Zhengyu wrote at 11:58 PM.

Monday, August 09, 2004

 

just finished watching the national day parade. wow. okay so it wasnt such a bad experience after all. tot i'm sick of it after all these years but well it's not quite the case. was trying to exchange verses with jc during the parade but i couldnt keep up after the first round, couldnt find the proper word =( haha. anyhow there is now an official fantasy of watching fireworks with someone (lol ndp fireworks) very funny.

sis made alot of comments about how everything looked very "modern". I think maybe we can say hip. you know, with "JJ" hipping up the song in front of kit chan and stuff. yo, check it out. =P But it was alright, done to the edge of possible tastelessness. Congrats to Andy and jc and tat for surviving all these months of ndp. celebrate that no more soka or pa ppl will come into our camp and use the field. (of course some ppl will be sad that the younger and cuter girls wun be coming anymore. not to mention the guards who oogle at the security camera aimed at the camp where all these people would come in by)

sigh. will be preparing to go back to camp soon. life is passing by slowly, despite having so many events one after the other. i wonder why? alas, shouldnt be bothering with this. after all when you look back, time will always have passed by quickly.

happy national day everyone!

Zhengyu wrote at 8:28 PM.

Sunday, August 08, 2004

 

it's sunday night! i'm at home! only because tomorrow is our favourite national day. supposed to have been a super long weekend but end up like any other weekend, since i inevitably ended up as saturday do. alas. some things cannot be avoided. okay fine so it could have been avoided, but probably would mean someone else will die very soon. and my buddy's involved in it so he might get it. then i'll -always- come home to an empty bunk! cannot!

oh binx is here. hail oh holy (scramble to find the correct direction) erm holy whatever, please guide this mysterious attention away. on my part i must start to find some way to end it too. heh. time to practice the way of the tao: taiji, saf style.

bored. tried out ming dao's little theory but things dun seem to work out so well. i think i'm just playing the chords like totally wrong, but then i cannot even get Dm correct so er i think we need some work here oops. jiat lat. havent received the stuff from csl either, so I cant seem how far we've gotten. and bx said he's got writer's block now so ljf is probably stuck until something sparks his brain off again. on my side... christmas is still some time away right? gooooood. -cold sweat- very jiat lat.

still toying with the comms idea with kenneth. He says it's like a 10min delay, i'm thinking it might end up costing a bomb. or two. and four grenades in a packaged deal. but that would be very horrible. the 2wo will come down and personally whack me."encik! sorry!" hai we see how lah hor. maybe i'll end up sleeping the time away. after all I'll be on off / leave. oh yah, am starting to clear leave already haha. we realised that if we dun start, later the three of us might end up clearing together, then the coy will like die very quickly. especially after the msg frustrates any person of rank 2lt / 2wo or higher. which is pretty often. so now i'll be like "oh there's nothing much in this week. okay let's clear leave!"

Zhengyu wrote at 7:33 PM.

 

basket. sister's singing totally made me forget what i wanted to type. basket. and it's not like very nice singing. hmph.

Zhengyu wrote at 7:30 PM.

Sunday, August 01, 2004

 

hello. i'm bored. did some more homework but i really dun feel like moving very much. tomorrow is the day that people will come and say things to get us into trouble. okay so that was not a very fair statement, it's their job after all. so we'll hang around. and pray.

my training programme has become so successful that i do not have a copy of it myself. i believe no one does. this marks the level of my success in doing my job. truly a remarkable oo. pretty darn screwed up one too. sigh. i think the specs didnt fulfill the tasking again. i think i need to come in and kick them a bit. like tell them to clear their test before end of tuesday. that'll be quite stressful. maybe someone might come along and report stress. yay~ celebrations!

we're ordering pizza. why we're doing it i dunno, i guess i ought to eat more of mum's cooking since i'm like at home and not someone in the jungles/deserts. but i dun. ah well. what's the chances that one day i'll wake up and stop my weird nonsense. probably quite low. have not gotten into contact with jc yet, so havent found out much about the matchmaking session either. surely i'll be disappointed even if i do find out. but it's just funny to imagine yan shiun pulling that fellow out. =)

time to prep. a year more to studies. feels like i've been out of school for real long. must be the army. reeeeaaaal looooong.

Zhengyu wrote at 6:28 PM.

 

yo. feeling somewhat creative now. then again. if you look between the words, maybe not. hai, hai shi bie xiang shang xin shi. jc apparently got roped into some matchmaking volleyball session (yo check it out) by our dearest yan shiun. this is a must-find-out when he comes home muahaha. very interesting. someone needs to knock -literally- some sense into this fellow. fancy a good 2.5 yrs and he's still dreamy and all. -searches for frying pan-

crapped out a small chunk of midi for fun. it's very much like saying hey i'm supposed to do this, stone around, play some games, realise to my horror i havent done something i promised, sit down in front of the comp hoping to find a ready made one somewhere, realise i have no idea where, go to sleep, wake up the next day, have breakfast, refuse to go out for lunch with my sis, then sit down and start and finish it. but okay i've made a very raw draft. please dun kill me for the G's and the F's. I think i didnt put in any A's so hope that's some relief. =) but the sky is still tumbling down leh =(

Zhengyu wrote at 2:46 PM.