Tuesday, February 20, 2007

 

post cny post.

watched the mandarin movie after the cny special programme. almost died watching that sort of thing. and then i tell ljc the next day and he tells me "i have the vcd. you want or not?" i had to tell him that i'd like to try to forget that sort of thing and move on.

matt dropped by! hello matt! hope the whole gang of you are doing fine, but i guess you guys dun see each other that much too huh. i dun meet bx and qy that often either, and jc is threatening to disappear too. but bx is trying to organise a meetup this week so i hope it happens. thanks to bx in advance.

went to chinese gardens today with my family for a picnic. it's the first time in a long long time i did something like this with my fam. and i guess it would be quite some time before we do this again. dun think i'd be that free to hang around. usually i spend more time on suppers and friends than with family, i must say.

i re-read my last post and realised that i mentioned three different people in the same post. very complicated unless you know the people around me too.

Zhengyu wrote at 6:59 PM.

Saturday, February 17, 2007

 

i used to look up to her. but recently she just hasnt been the person i thought she would be, and maybe i should say i'm rather quick to judge her now.

not everyone is as willing to do everything.

maybe she isnt. well i've been spending much more time talking to her than the rest of the gang. and i think she's not the only one. Or rather i can be sure of that because they said so specifically.

but these excuses, even from beneath my attempts to soothe my fellow member, i'm thinking, "this is ridiculous" and they really are, by my standards. by our standards. but what is there to do? she's not like us. she's different. we're different.

she was compiling data. i didnt want to send in mine because i was already very tempted to tell her about my concept for next year. i didnt want to take them. it makes me guilty. it makes me feel, like after all these we've put in, that everyone has put in, are we going to let it fail? the answer was supposed to be no.

Zhengyu wrote at 2:47 AM.

Monday, February 12, 2007

 

tired. but waiting to discuss tutorial with jc.

i think i'm quite social biased person. well, somewhat. i used to think i'm just plain operations, but maybe i'm wrong. i'm seeing that bit of social here and there. ah well, more fluidity means more excitement i guess.

the new floral scented softener somehow works like ten times better than the previous scent that i used (same brand, mind you) i dun understand why. but my clothes and bedsheet are freaking soft now. it's a good thing tho. mm.

Zhengyu wrote at 1:41 AM.

Friday, February 09, 2007

 

had a very long talk with my chairperson last night. set me thinking about what i thought would be unquestionable. And this morning I got to talk to fiona a bit too.

hm. just maybe, i'll need some time to myself, and whatever things. i'm looking at dropping two of them, not that they take much time (one of them does take alot energy tho.) and perhaps i can be decided. even before last night i was already thinking about how it's not practical to hold on to so many activities, that maybe i should drop one. and i would know which one to drop. for me at least, the choice is quite obvious.

because at the end of the day, the phoenix may not be reborn after its flames engulf it. maybe that was what my senior was thinking too, before she shocked everyone. just maybe.

but having said that, everything will hinge on the turning of the sem. when i'll be too busy to think through any thing properly, anyway. maybe by then my mentality will change again.

Zhengyu wrote at 12:10 PM.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

 

no drive left. going to give in soon.

Zhengyu wrote at 2:53 AM.

Thursday, February 01, 2007

 

juncai fell asleep in my room.

it's been hectic recently, and i wouldnt dare to say i've been entirely myself (altho yesterday i just told someone that i'm happy that i'm true to myself) and yes in a way the biological cycle has been shifted so bad that i'm now a evening person.

ok time for dinner with laiyi and jc

Zhengyu wrote at 6:55 PM.