Saturday, February 17, 2007

 

i used to look up to her. but recently she just hasnt been the person i thought she would be, and maybe i should say i'm rather quick to judge her now.

not everyone is as willing to do everything.

maybe she isnt. well i've been spending much more time talking to her than the rest of the gang. and i think she's not the only one. Or rather i can be sure of that because they said so specifically.

but these excuses, even from beneath my attempts to soothe my fellow member, i'm thinking, "this is ridiculous" and they really are, by my standards. by our standards. but what is there to do? she's not like us. she's different. we're different.

she was compiling data. i didnt want to send in mine because i was already very tempted to tell her about my concept for next year. i didnt want to take them. it makes me guilty. it makes me feel, like after all these we've put in, that everyone has put in, are we going to let it fail? the answer was supposed to be no.

Zhengyu wrote at 2:47 AM.