Thursday, May 10, 2007

 

time is running out. against all my previous whining, i might be forced into a deadlock, or worse, into a working relationship with some people. i'm not trying particularly hard to solve either side, but i'm still caught in between, nevertheless. and people are losing patience because i am turning desperate. i'm almost ready to throw away the entire relationship to keep this last step functional and proper. almost. in anycase i think i have already crossed the line and sacrificed two, but nothing productive came out of it. it might be something to do with the way i handled them, but the truth is i am not sorry.

caring for something is entirely different from actively doing something about it.

In any case, the problem on hand now is to ensure that the task gets completed. the next drastic step will be even worse, and one week from now i will be doing it. unless a miracle happens and someone realises what her role is really about. when that happens, i should probably expect to lose the support of the entire batch (not that i started with very much) and be expected to run the whole show on my own.

i made an uninformed choice one year ago. i thought it was informed, but i learnt that i was mistaken. now i need to redeem myself. or at least try. many times, just trying alone makes a world of difference.

Zhengyu wrote at 10:29 AM.