Thursday, August 30, 2007

 

i have things on my mind.

it's ironic. i go around telling people to please let me know what's on their minds. but i have things that i see as the kind i must never let out. best if i bring them with me to my grave.

it's sad. i can only bitch about the nature of things, but i cannot mention specific things, or time, or event, or persons. who would listen to me? then again, there's no point, since i would most likely not share with the person.

time to sleep.

Zhengyu wrote at 2:59 AM.

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

 

i blog. i have been talking to people and i gather that i have seen a handful of different people, through different emotions.

handling people is tough.

i am forgetting the very things that i set out for my people. i'm the embodiment of exactly what they should not be doing.

i realise that i have forgotten what my cap is.

Zhengyu wrote at 3:38 AM.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

 

just showered. i havent done up my 3292 short report... think i'm screwed big time for this one.

i went out to nikki's with waikit and laiyi. good time to talk about things. think about hall. and their plans for next year. suddenly i suspect i might be very alone in hall next year. and they were right when they said those things about hall, how things are changing. i would like to bring it back if i can, and perhaps convince them to stay on for one more year. after talking to farveez i realised what my area of concern is.

Zhengyu wrote at 2:36 AM.

Sunday, August 19, 2007

 

today: tuition at 7pm, meeting at 10pm. free time before 7pm. expectations: meet farveez, grace. talk to shi ting on the phone. visit home.

expectations but not today: meet shu hui, jia lun, wai kit, leon, yang chen, chee yen. wah shit still got so many left...

went out with si min last night. i dunno how she thinks, but she's like the closest working partner i've had since kenneth. except that maybe our thinking are too alike for us to be effective. kenneth was the best partner i ever had, because he covered the ccis half of the formation's task, and he was fun and a leetle out going (at least the humour is in my style), and he was a caring buddy who was willing to go through the shit together. but i guess i dun have that many kenneths to work with so haha i have to learn to work differently too. i dunno if i'll have another chance to work with si min, but i think it'll be nice. but i havent decided haha.

Zhengyu wrote at 9:51 AM.

Saturday, August 18, 2007

 

it's tiring to talk to people. i must admit that i essentially broke down today, but now i feel much better. i should rest early and take things slow.

float is not over yet. i'll be expected to finish off the last portions of float, almost as if i have no other commitment to stick to.

showcase prac must be shown very very soon. which means we need to call people and we need to put up the second signs. and i'm still the one driving the committee, which makes me real worried. what would happen if i was gone? i dun want to think about it.

i got pissed off for reso. they didnt do anything wrong, it's just me feeling that i no longer owe them a living so i want them off my back. not that they were on my back to begin with. i dun intend to perform with them, and i dun have the option to, either. i might still ask terence out of completeness, but i dun expect him to shift the date. the hall does not revolve around one person.

Zhengyu wrote at 4:05 AM.

Friday, August 17, 2007

 

i havent blogged for one month. one month ago, i was still at greendale. i had to at least sleep by a certain timing (ie about immediately after i get home and finish checking mails)

the past month has been hectic. i have adjusted my sleep cycle successfully such that i'm pretty much active between 2-5am. and then i havent figured out how to adjust it back to normal. in any case, since jc my normal has been like sleep at 2am. then struggle to wake up at 6+...

school has started, but i have barely adjusted at all. i have no idea how the tutorial system works anymore, cos it's like just completely different. and i have no idea how different.

float has ended. well in a way, but the post admin have not been completed. i'm still expected to work out the balance sheet with jiahui and help with the photo frames. for today i was barely at the work table cos i went out for dental appt, then meet jiayan and gang for lunch, then ibg (almost got to play hockey... ah. nvm.) and finally talk to trixie. then i knocked out on my bed till 12+, when my phone rang.

greendale has ended. i had the poorest project on display and i can only be glad that i'm still amongst the list to receive 6k for thie year's allowances. or maybe i have been subtly removed. maybe when i get the 6k i'll know better which is it.

prep for jcrc has finally started. the election comm has already opened the nomination window, and thus i have no choice but to start trying to form a committee to run for the positions. i have been putting it off for damn long, partly because i really needed time with float, which i lacked, and partly because i was pretty much clueless about what to do in getting a new comm. let's just say that this is my first attempt.

work with resonance is ending. i have yet to really tell je what are the job scope contents for resource manager, but i reckon that even if i dun tell him, he'll handle just fine. i ought to, though. i already declared my stand to the new committee, and they have also chosen their two advisors. an interesting choice, i must say. but an effective one, nonetheless. i'm waiting for sept 14 to come.

preparations for ke voices has started. slowly. we started the charlie brown teasers, and then target to add the remaining text soon, perhaps by monday. i just realised that we need to prepare for the show case practice next week. crap... okay time to get things going. i have not really handed over voices, because there's no one in particular to receive it. kaikai is the best candidate but he's super busy with ibg now. and now i'm having ideas about asking michael back to save me from voices altogether. i'm cui-ing.

mum sent me an sms a week ago asking me if i had time to go back. i told her this weekend got chance.

Zhengyu wrote at 3:06 AM.