Friday, September 28, 2007

 

lazy friday morning.

damn lazy...

never study...

scores also damn hard to remember... tian ah!

Zhengyu wrote at 10:57 AM.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

 

i've self-declared myself as some sort of a mercenary member in reso. not that i charge them for my participation (tho that might be an interesting idea, albeit unfeasible), but i'll only appear upon being summoned, and my criteria would be that i am really needed ("if you dun need me, dun call me. thx!") maybe i need time to sit around and watch the moon cycle between its various shapes. maybe i just need time to cool down from, not singing, but the whole deal that came with reso. and maybe i'll just get wasted away from the aca scene. or maybe i will be back refreshed next year. no one knows for sure. but honestly i'm not very hopeful myself.

Zhengyu wrote at 5:20 PM.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

 

slacking. going through some sort of trauma myself underneath, so i'm still looking for the balance point.

i decided i have enough of entertaining my friend. i need to move on. i need time for myself and other things, and not the listening to the same person talk about things she cannot change and whine and drown in self pity and imposing herself on everyone else. i can accept friends who need emotional support, but this one is just demanding it. this is way too much. in fact i now believe that not giving her support will make her stronger, and is better for the whole wide world.

i need to zen. and find an answer for myself.

Zhengyu wrote at 3:07 AM.

Saturday, September 15, 2007

 

if anyone knows me well enough, then they would know that it takes almost no effort to convince me to do something for the hall, as long as it's within my capability. it's been like that for 1 whole year, it's just whether you guys understand.

that having being said, it's another thing to allow my friends to suffer for the hall. this rule of self sacrifice for hall only applies to me alone. suffer, maybe yes, but there's a limit to how much you can accept watching your friends suffer and not do anything about it.

Zhengyu wrote at 5:11 AM.

Friday, September 14, 2007

 

i belong to a fortunate batch to watch the hall grow in the recent years. we are lucky to enjoy what our ancestors have left behind for us. but the future now lies in our hands, and it's up to the hall to shape it.

Shaping the hall's future does not stop at voting at the elections. it goes on, from working out every small detail in committee planning, to being the ideal kind of neighbour that you'll want to have, to being friends with your buddies and sharing their pains and joys. we have the power to shape the future towards a better future, just as we have always had. no matter what happens from here, do it for the hall.

i wish i could save everyone, but i couldnt. now i am semi atoning for my mistake.

Zhengyu wrote at 2:26 AM.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

 

i lost the presidency.

nothing that i want to be ashamed about. but the big question is, what's next? I have my own plans to do small initiatives at the base level, and i'm looking at CRC, Branding comm, and I just thought of MAB. well, i'm already more than qualified for these few comms anyway. small comms are easy to do some more.

i dun even know what i am supposed to feel. am i to feel sorry for those who i left behind in the committee? am i to feel apologetic for my poor performance? am i to feel defeated because i was knocked over? am i to worry for what will become of ke? or, am i to feel relieved that i have been awarded my first rest period in 1 and a half years? or do i feel guilty that i even have had that thought of taking things easy?

what do i feel? i dunno. but i would like to tell a few people, that they have done what they thought was right, and that's all that matters. looking forward, we may become wiser and tell better between right and wrong, but we did the best we judged to be, and for that i think you guys have done exactly what you ought to. so dun feel sorry or anything. i dun, so there's no reason that you should be taking my burden for me.

Zhengyu wrote at 3:47 AM.