Friday, February 01, 2008

 

i was briefly reminded of how i was as a freshman in ke. i wanted to try new things, to set time aside for defining myself again. i offered some help to ke as av crew but they rejected me (i still think it was because i didnt include my relevant experience. but at least because of that i have crafted a rather different route) i joined ke voices to maintain my instrument. later on i joined xqrj because there were a number of friends inside.

that was the beginning where everything spun out of control. through xq i joined reso and float. then block comm. then float again. then i ran for jcrc (which failed) and i ended up in publications marketing, alumni, constitution review, auditing, yep, and now perhaps merit awards board.

i still havent had the chance to play a sport. once in a while i tell myself to go exercise, but it rarely goes through. once in a while i look at the stuff i'm going through and wonder what is the reason behind these. gratitude? perhaps, but perhaps i have also paid back enough in kind. friendship? wilfred just eliminated that for me. so what is there left?

i am very tempted to go back to my own life. oh. waikit just msged me. looks like i'm in mab after all.

just imagine. a year with only music, studies, real friends, and for once, with my family.

Zhengyu wrote at 1:47 PM.