Thursday, August 27, 2009

 

i havent really cleared up very much.

i wrote on my page, that life is worth fighting for. every little bit of it. but sometimes when i look back, i see that as i fought on long and hard for the things i thought was important to me, little bits of me died. bits that might once had been considerate enough or could empathise with others, they die along the way. bits of me that said youth is courage and we should go all out to live life for what it is, died. bits that sang to lyrics of 不怕爱错，只怕没爱过 have surely died a long time ago. bits that said i can change the world for the better now only remembers wanting to change the world but hardly knows what to change it into anymore.

so perhaps it's not such a great deal fighting on. perhaps it's only a dilemma about what to keep, what to give up on. i could jolly well have kept some of those sanity, but i would have had to give up something else. but either way i lose. all that accomplishment comes down to nothing in the end. all that character crumbles to bits when the time comes.

Zhengyu wrote at 1:53 PM.